Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Sharing




So okay, I know I share a bunch of stuff here in this space, you all know far more about me than I am guessing you would like. I stand before you naked time and time again, my life, my friendships, my overindulgence…my heart; it is all out here on display for you all to read in between my miscellaneous wine posts or rants about this and that. Not sure if that brings you closer or runs you off, guessing it is a bit of both. Some stay, follow me along in my quest and self exploration and others will flee in search of something more wine focused. I get it and don’t blame the ones that bail, adore the ones that stay and support me on my baby-legged stumble to find my voice in this big wine blogging world. For those that stay I continue to share, share my stories, my inspiration and myself…the only thing I really have to give to thank you all, all those fingers in my back, those eyes on me, that drive that pushes me to continue talking, oozing, waxing rhapsodic about whatever it is that bounces into this wacky head of mine…

So this evening, all alone in my home, I started thinking about sharing, how lovely, how codifying, how powerful it is but….sometimes, well sometimes it’s better alone. I’m willing to confess that sometimes pleasure is best served for one…especially when you are serving yourself.

Don’t go acting all shocked, don’t act like you don’t do it too, I know you do..you all do, we all do, and sometimes there is nothing better than the pleasure one can derive than that from one’s own hand, one’s own voice and from one’s own purring sounds. Sure, the Internets assist, they lead us, toy with us; make us think of things that we might not have considered on our own. Offer scintillating photos of what we want, what we secretly ache for, make our mouths water for, “Just a taste” and then we are left to our own devices…our own will, our own want. Tonight I “wanted” more than I have in a very long time….alone or not, I was going to, have…take, and fucking feel…what I wanted, me and me alone.




To be alone with your, self seduction, the way you can feel the little hairs stand up on the base of your neck, the way the skin around your most sensitive parts seem to constrict, tighten and the way that feeling runs up the base of your spine. To have a room so silent that you can hear the groan of pleasure escape your lips, how sexy that echoing silence can be. Just you, your thoughts, your will, your want, your need…your nose caught up in the cacophony of scent, your palate wildly flicking away…bouncing, fighting to taste every last drop, the way your throat seems to expand to take it all in. There is nothing like it. Sharing is sweet, it’s wonderful but this feeling…unlike any other.

So tonight I pleasured myself, I’m not afraid to share that here. It felt fantastic, my hairs erect, my throat open, my heart open and me here, with all of you…exposing myself once again, sharing my self exploration with you. I opened a bottle of 2000 Paul Chapelle Meursault and drank the whole damn thing…alone. No one in my ear yammering about texture, length or premature oxidation, just me…alone in my library smelling home. Face washed, jammies on, little hairs tingling the base of my neck…



Great wine is best shared with people that can appreciate it, I have to agree….for the most part, but once in a while, there is nothing that can compare or compete with the knee weakening, heart pounding…….head spinning pleasure that can be had with a night of, “self pleasurevation”…

17 comments:

Benito said...

Good Lord, woman! I think just reading this post is illegal in the state of Tennessee. I had to close the curtains and lock the front door. ;)

Thank you as always for sharing your honest passion for the grape, and for the fact that this post was not written by the stereotypical wrinkly old wine writer. Certain mental images... just don't need to happen.

Cheers,
Benito

Samantha Dugan said...

Ben,
I felt so nekkid when I hit, "publish" was keeping my fingers crossed that someone cool would read it first...so glad it was you.
Thank you for being the cool cat that you are and for like, reading all my junk...curtains closed or open. I adore you Ben.

Sara Louise said...

Bravo brave woman! This just topped my list of favorite posts. I love it!

The Woo said...

You know, nine out of ten "wine drinkers" self pleasure regularly and the tenth is a liar. :).

Great post.

Sometimes I open awesome wine all by myself and then hide the empty from my wife so she doesn't know...

Ron Washam said...

My Gorgeous Samantha,

Reading about you drinking Meursault meursault-lo gave me one giant Cote de Beauner.

Next time, may I watch?

I love you!

Your HoseMaster

amy said...

Sam,
I kept waiting for you to say you were talking about something else--but you didn't--you really were talking about "that."
I, too, enjoy solo activities...like drinking yummy wine by myself.
Love,
Amy

k2 said...

Holy cow, woman! I'm three shades of red right now. You are officially the Anais Nin of wine blogging. Extraordinary! The effortless freedom with which you write, you have far bigger "juevos" than I do.

Samantha Dugan said...

Sara,
Not all that brave I assure you, but thank you very much and I am thrilled that you dug it. I'm dying to know....how the hell did you stumble on this blog anyway?

Woo,
Oh dude, I know they do, that's why I felt like it was time to expose them....and myself as it turns out.

Ron My Love,
You made me blush and feel a little like a Cahor. I adore you funny man.

Amy,
The "that" I was talking about was self pleasuring....by opening something fantastic alone, giving yourself over to a bottle the way you would....well, you get it.

k2,
Just glas I was able to make ya feel something! You flatter me....and my nads. Thank you so much.

Michael Hughes said...

All I have to say is....Oooo weee

roger said...

Doode...Beave told me to read your post...so I did. Then I went all over the house and "put my dick in shit.". Fukin shred. See y'all next week.

Sexy Bitch

Thomas said...

Sam,

You keep doing that and you'll lose your mind--that's what momma always said, but she was a beer drinker!

Samantha Dugan said...

Michael,
Thank you?!

Sexy Bitch,
So happy to hear that I, "inspired" you. Looking forward to our visit but I am now bringing Handi Wipes.

Thomas,
Old wives tale....trust me, I'm an old wife.

Kimberly said...

I don't know why I haven't saved your blog to my "Favorites" before now. Benito, who I did not know a couple months ago, e-mailed me about my blog back then, which was VERY flattering, mind you, and in the course of our e-mail exchange, told me yours was a blog I should read. So I did, and adored it. But then I guess I forgot to save it to my Favorites then, because when I came back to it just now and read this post, I thought, "Oh Yeah, THIS blog! I meant to be reading it regularly, and let it slip between the cracks somehow. . ." But now that I've "found" it again, I will be visiting regularly. Awesome post, by the way! I am drinking wine all by my lonesome tonight, and enjoying every minute of it!

K.Mahoney said...

You are inspiring to say the least! Loved this post.

K.

Samantha Dugan said...

Kimberly,
Well welcome back lady. I appreciate being found, I tend to get lost a lot...this post should prove that! Glad to be back on your radar and look forward to hearing more girlies chime in from time to time.

K,
Well thanks chicka, got some rather interesting comments and emails about this post. I had fun writing it and even more fun hearing how people took it.

Nancy Deprez said...

Damn that had to be one nice bottle of 2000 Meursault! Wish you called me. :) Kidding - glad you enjoyed it to the last drop. :)

Nancy Deprez said...

"Beave"???