Tuesday, September 17, 2013

How Many Heartbeats In A Day Away From You?




The silence of my home this afternoon left me alone with my thoughts, the quiet sounds of the world outside doing little to pull me out of my head, little to stop the flashing scenes…my memories of you unfolding before me, each turn of the page making me squirm and wiggle. My mind stained with the very real, intense remembrance of my all too brief time with you, my heart pounding when I close my eyes and let myself remember your scent, a smell unlike any other I had known before or will ever be forgotten…and a smell that has replaced my idea of what eroticism means….Just a couple more days to wait, for You.


It's difficult for me when I begin to think of you, us, that night, the night I had you to myself for the first time….the way I had let myself think about it, but was sure it would never be, just thinking about that night and I find myself consumed, lost in a hedonistic swirl of wet flesh, twisted want, a desire so fucking consuming that it literally rattles my bones ……Only a couple more days until, You.







I attempted to busy myself with the chores of real life, wiping the counters, cleaning the floors, but for all of my feverish scrubbing of dusty corners and titillating memories, I just find myself once again, short of breath with droplets of anticipation rolling down my back, slipping across my tummy, saturating my shirt. I let my teeth sink hard into my bottom lip and long for a way to rid myself of this nearly suffocating and extraordinarily potent dominance you have, long for a cloth powerful enough to wash myself clean of you. My body grows tired, as if the mere aching, remembering and longing is draining every ounce of resistance, resilience and strength…..and the resounding and intoxicating feeling, I miss You






No matter how far away you are, how many hours, days, weeks months and years pass without us touching, for me….you are the single sexiest, devastatingly seductive  memory, aroma, flavor that I have ever known....in just a couple more days I will bury my nose, rub my palms, fill my mouth and heart with You.

No wonder I can't sleep......
It's You
Keeping me weak and ready
For more.  


Supple apricots
Flinty wet stones
Honeycomb 
Truffle....
Clove
Lemon curd....
Uncontrollable desire 

7 comments:

Do Bianchi said...

this is such an achingly pure post, Samantha! I love it... and man, I would love to taste that wine with you some day... we'll have to get Japko to break that shit out!

sending a hug today from SD (where I'm missing my babies something awful!)

Samantha Dugan said...

Hey Jeremy,
I felt my heart skip a beat when I read you had just had the pleasure of tasting my beloved Rougeard wines for the first time. I had been counting the weeks until my allocation arrived...coming Thursday. Did you get to try the Breze? His sexy as hell Chenin Blanc? That's the wines I am powerless against and am talking about here. Kills me how sexy it is.

Keep your chin up Pop, you will be home with those beautiful ladies of yours in no time, but until then I send you one of my biggest and tightest hugs.

Romes said...

Wow... Did you ship box 2 yet? Can I afford this wine? You made me feel like I must have it.. And a cigarette after the affair with it too. That is saying something since I've never even thought of smoking, let alone taken even one puff!

Beautiful writing...

Samantha Dugan said...

The wine I'm powerless against, not wines...but should someone be offering up a decanter of more, fuck yes, I'm in.

Jess,
Your second case has not left yet. We are still waiting on that Patrick Piuze Sans Dosage Cremant de Bourgogne to arrive, dammit. Can you afford the Rougeard, well we all can if we want it bad enough. That being said, it's wicked pricy and out of the bracket you and I tend to work within. I don't even have the prices yet but last time I think it was around $65 a bottle, so like I said, not cheap. I'm getting a whopping case for my allocation and I think over half of it is gone already, and it's not even here yet!

Oh and don't smoke! Take it from me, took the love of my life needing a very special gift to break me from that life long relationship. Thank you for the kind words sweet lady.

Romes said...

Put one in... It is my birthday soon so I deserve it!

Samantha Dugan said...

Fuck yes! I am so goddamn excited for you...

Chris said...

Happy Birthday Romes!